人间-红豆-暧昧-流言-如风----------执迷不悔.

"Thousands of years ago, the first man discovered how to make fire. He was probably burned at the stake he had taught his brothers to light. He was considered an evildoer who had dealt with a demon mankind dreaded. But thereafter men had fire to keep them warm, to cook their food, to light their caves. He had left them a gift they had not conceived and he had lifted darkness off the earth. Centuries later, the first man invented the wheel. He was probably torn on the rack he had taught his brothers to build. He was considered a transgressor who ventured into forbidden territory. But thereafter, men could travel past any horizon. He had left them a gift they had not conceived and he had opened the roads of the world. 

"That man, the unsubmissive and first, stands in the opening chapter of every legend mankind has recorded about its beginning. Prometheus was chained to a rock and torn byvultures--because he had ⑴stolen the fire of the gods. Adam was condemned to suffer--because he had ⑵eaten the fruit of the tree of knowledge. Whatever the legend, somewhere in the shadows of its memory mankind knew that its glory began with one and that that one paid for his courage.

"Throughout the centuries there were men who ⑶took first steps down new roads armed with nothing but their own vision. Their goals differed, but they all had this in common: that the step was first, the road new, the vision unborrowed, and the response they received--hatred. The great creators--the thinkers, the artists, the scientists, the inventors--stood alone against the men of their time. Every great new thought was opposed. Every great new invention was denounced. The first motor was considered foolish. The airplane was considered impossible. The power loom was considered vicious. Anesthesia was considered sinful. But the men of unborrowed vision went ahead. They fought, they suffered and they paid. But they won.

"No creator was prompted by a desire to serve his brothers, for his brothers rejected the gift he offered and that gift destroyed the slothful routine of their lives. His truth was his only motive. His own truth, and his own work to achieve it in his own way. A symphony, a book, an engine, a philosophy, an airplane or a building--that was his goal and his life. Not those who heard, read, operated, believed, flew or inhabited the thing he had created. The creation, not its users. The creation, not the benefits others derived from it. The creation which gave form to his truth. He held his truth above all things and against all men.

"His vision, his strength, his courage came from his own spirit. A man's spirit, however, is his self. That entity which is his consciousness. To think, to feel, to judge, to act are functions of the ego.

"The creators were not selfless. It is the whole secret of their power--that it was selfsufficient, ⑷self-motivated, self -generated. A first cause, a fount of energy, a life force, a Prime Mover. The creator served nothing and no one. He had lived for himself.

"And only by living for himself was he able to ⑸achieve the things which are the glory of mankind. Such is the nature of achievement.

"Man cannot survive except through his mind. He comes on earth unarmed. His brain is his only weapon. Animals obtain food by force. Man has no claws, no fangs, no horns, no great strength of muscle. He must plant his food or hunt it. To plant, he needs a process of thought. To hunt, he needs weapons, and to make weapons--a process of thought. From this simplest necessity to the highest religious abstraction, from the wheel to the skyscraper, everything we are and everything we have comes from a single attribute of man--⑹the function of his reasoning mind.

"But the mind is an attribute of the individual. There is no such thing as a collective brain. There is no such thing as a collective thought. An agreement reached by a group of men is only a compromise or an average drawn upon many individual thoughts. It is a secondary consequence. The primary act--the process of reason--must be performed by each man alone. We can divide a meal among many men. We cannot digest it in a collective stomach. No man can use his lungs to breathe for another man. No man can use his brain to think for another. All the functions of ⑺body and spirit are private. They cannot be shared or transferred.

"We ⑻inherit the products of the thought of other men. We inherit the wheel. We make a cart. The cart becomes an automobile. The automobile becomes an airplane. But all through the process what we receive from others is only the end product of their thinking. The moving force is the creative faculty which takes this product as material, uses it and originates the next step. This creative faculty cannot be given or received, shared or borrowed. It belongs to single, individual men. That which it creates is the property of the creator. Men learn from one another. But all learning is only the exchange of material. No man can give another the capacity to think. Yet that capacity is our only means of survival.

"Nothing is given to man on earth. Everything he needs has to be produced. And here man faces his basic alternative: he can survive in only one of two ways--by the independent work of his own mind or as a parasite fed by the minds of others. The creator originates. The parasite borrows. The creator ⑼faces nature alone. The parasite faces nature through an intermediary.

"The creator's concern is the conquest of nature. The parasite's concern is the conquest of men.

"The creator lives for his work. He needs no other men. His primary goal is within himself. The parasite lives second-hand. He needs others. Others become his prime motive.

"The basic need of the creator is independence. The reasoning mind cannot work under any form of compulsion. It cannot be curbed, sacrificed or subordinated to any consideration whatsoever. It demands total ⑽independence in function and in motive. To a creator, all relations with men are secondary.

"The basic need of the second-hander is to secure his ties with men in order to be fed. He places relations first. He declares that man exists in order to serve others. He preaches altruism.

"Altruism is the doctrine which demands that man live for others and place others above self.

"No man can live for another. He cannot share his spirit just as he cannot share his body. But the second-hander has used altruism as a weapon of exploitation and reversed the base of mankind's moral principles. Men have been taught every precept that destroys the creator. Men have been taught dependence as a virtue.

"The man who attempts to live for others is a dependent. He is a parasite in motive and makes parasites of those he serves. The relationship produces nothing but mutual corruption. It is impossible in concept. The nearest approach to it in reality--the man who lives to serve others--is the slave. If physical slavery is repulsive, how much more repulsive is the concept of servility of the spirit? The conquered slave has a vestige of honor. He has the merit of having resisted and of considering his condition evil. But the man who enslaves himself voluntarily in the name of love is the basest of creatures. He degrades the dignity of man and he degrades the conception of love. But this is the essence of altruism.

"Men have been taught that the highest virtue is not to achieve, but to give. Yet one cannot give that which has not been created. Creation comes before distribution--or there will be nothing to distribute. The need of the creator comes before the need of any possible beneficiary. Yet we are taught to admire the second-hander who dispenses gifts he has not produced above the man who made the gifts possible. We praise an act of charity. We shrug at an act of achievement.

"Men have been taught that their first concern is to relieve the suffering of others. But suffering is a disease. Should one come upon it, one tries to give relief and assistance. To make that the highest test of virtue is to make suffering the most important part of life. Then man must wish to see others suffer--in order that he may be virtuous. Such is the nature of altruism. The creator is not concerned with disease, but with life. Yet the work of the creators has eliminated one form of disease after another, in man's body and spirit, and brought more relief from suffering than any altruist could ever conceive.

"Men have been taught that it is a virtue to agree with others. But the creator is the man who disagrees. Men have been taught that it is a virtue to swim with the current. But the creator is the man who ⑾goes against the current. Men have been taught that it is a virtue to stand together. But the creator is the man who stands alone.

"Men have been taught that the ego is the synonym of evil, and selflessness the ideal of virtue. But the creator is the egotist in the absolute sense, and the selfless man is the one who does not think, feel, judge, or act. These are functions of the self.

"Here the basic reversal is most deadly. The issue has been perverted and man has been left no alternative--and no freedom. As poles of good and evil, he was offered two conceptions: egotism and altruism. Egotism was held to mean the sacrifice of others to self. Altruism--the sacrifice of self to others. This tied man irrevocably to other men and left him nothing but a choice of pain: his own pain borne for the sake of others or pain inflicted upon others for the sake of self. When it was added that man must find joy in self-immolation, the trap was closed. Man was forced to accept masochism as his ideal--under the threat that sadism was his only alternative. This was the greatest fraud ever perpetrated on mankind.

"This was the device by which dependence and suffering were perpetuated as fundamentals of life.

"The choice is not self-sacrifice or domination. The choice is independence or dependence. The code of the creator or the code of the second-hander. This is the basic issue. It rests upon the alternative of life or death. The code of the creator is ⑿built on the needs of the reasoning mind which allows man to survive. The code of the second-hander is built on the needs of a mind incapable of survival. All that which proceeds from man's independent ego is good. All that which proceeds from man's dependence upon men is evil.

"The egotist in the absolute sense is not the man who sacrifices others. He is the man who stands above the need of using others in any manner. He does not function through them. He is not concerned with them in any primary matter. Not in his aim, not in his motive, not in his thinking, not in his desires, not in the source of his energy. He does not exist for any other man--and he asks no other man to exist for him. This is the only form of brotherhood and mutual respect possible between men.

"Degrees of ability vary, but the basic principle remains the same: the degree of a man's independence, initiative and personal love for his work determines his talent as a worker and his worth as a man. Independence is the only gauge of human virtue and value. What a man is and makes of himself; not what he has or hasn't done for others. There is no substitute for personal dignity. There is no standard of personal dignity except independence.

"In all proper relationships there is no sacrifice of anyone to anyone. An architect needs clients, but he does not subordinate his work to their wishes. They need him, but they do not order a house just to give him a commission. Men exchange their work by free, mutual consent to mutual advantage when their personal interests agree and they both desire the exchange. If they do not desire it, they are not forced to deal with each other. They ⒀seek further. This is the only possible form of relationship between equals. Anything else is a relation of slave to master, or victim to executioner.

"No work is ever done collectively, by a majority decision. Every creative job is achieved under the guidance of a single individual thought. An architect requires a great many men to erect his building. But he does not ask them to vote on his design. They work together by free agreement and each is free in his proper function. An architect uses steel, glass, concrete, produced by others. But the materials remain just so much steel, glass and concrete until he touches them. What he does with them is his individual product and his individual property. This is the only pattern for proper co-operation among men.

"The first right on earth is the right of the ego. Man's first duty is to himself. His moral law is never to place his prime goal within the persons of others. His moral obligation is to do what he wishes, provided his wish does not depend primarily upon other men. This includes the whole sphere of his creative faculty, his thinking, his work. But it does not include the sphere of the gangster, the altruist and the dictator.

"A man ⒁thinks and works alone. A man cannot rob, exploit or rule--alone. Robbery, exploitation and ruling presuppose victims. They imply dependence. They are the province of the second-hander.

"Rulers of men are not egotists. They create nothing. They exist entirely through the persons of others. Their goal is in their subjects, in the activity of enslaving. They are as dependent as the beggar, the social worker and the bandit. The form of dependence does not matter.

"But men were taught to regard second-handers--tyrants, emperors, dictators--as exponents of egotism. By this fraud they were made to destroy the ego, themselves and others. The purpose of the fraud was to destroy the creators. Or to harness them. Which is a synonym.

"From the beginning of history, the two antagonists have stood face to face: the creator and the second-hander. When the first creator invented the wheel, the first second-hander responded. He invented altruism.

"The creator--denied, opposed, persecuted, exploited--went on, moved forward and carried all humanity along on his energy. The second-hander contributed nothing to the process except the impediments. The contest has another name: the individual against the collective.

"The 'common good' of a collective--a race, a class, a state--was the claim and justification of every tyranny ever established over men. Every major horror of history was committed in the name of an altruistic motive. Has any act of selfishness ever equaled the carnage perpetrated by disciples of altruism? Does the fault lie in men's hypocrisy or in the nature of the principle? The most dreadful butchers were the most sincere. They believed in the perfect society reached through the guillotine and the firing squad. Nobody questioned their right to murder since they were murdering for an altruistic purpose. It was accepted that man must be sacrificed for other men. Actors change, but the course of the tragedy remains the same. A humanitarian who starts with declarations of love for mankind and ends with a sea of blood. It goes on and will go on so long as men believe that an action is good if it is unselfish. That permits the altruist to act and forces his victims to bear it. The leaders of collectivist movements ask nothing for themselves. But observe the results.

"The only good which men can do to one another and the only statement of their proper relationship is--⒂Hands off!

"Now observe the results of a society built on the principle of individualism. This, our country. The noblest country in the history of men. The country of greatest achievement, greatest prosperity, greatest freedom. This country was not based on selfless service, sacrifice, renunciation or any precept of altruism. It was based on a man's right to ⒃the pursuit of happiness. His own happiness. Not anyone else's. A private, personal, selfish motive. Look at the results. Look into your own conscience.

"It is an ancient conflict. Men have come close to the truth, but it was destroyed each time and one civilization fell after another. Civilization is the progress toward a society of privacy. The savage's whole existence is public, ruled by the laws of his tribe. Civilization is the process of setting man free from men.

 

 

念亲恩

长夜空虚使我怀旧事
明月朗相对念母亲
父母亲爱心
柔善像碧月
怀念怎不悲莫禁
长夜空虚枕冷夜半泣
遥路远碧海示我心
父母亲爱心
柔善像碧月
常在心里问何日报
亲恩应该报
应该惜取孝道
惟独我离别
无法慰亲旁
轻弹曲韵梦中送

 

还记得高一时以“念亲恩”为题的一篇作文，老师认为不应该是我这样的年纪写出来的，打了问号，疑我抄袭。想那时刚从小山村搬入都市，啥也不懂，又写了一篇作文象老师解释“念亲恩”的写作过程，导致老师当堂赔礼道歉，从此每次作文都是一大堆批评语，现在作文信心全无，正应了那句“朽木不可雕矣”。

但是虽然我无法清晰明确直白了当言简意赅的表达出我的思想，不代表我没有捶胸顿足瞠目结舌缠绵悱恻的情感，反而正是因为我将这些情感看得太重太深太意长才会让我越是在面对自己所爱所亲所敬时婆婆妈妈心口难开，我希望我的亲人，爱人（ 将来也许吧 ），朋友不要被我的外表行为蒙骗，那不是真的，真相在我的眼睛里。

虽然是块朽木，但并非一块死木，寒冰不能断流水，枯木也能再逢春。

我正在努力着，为梦想和未来努力。

昨天是母亲节，祝福妈妈。（当然也祝福爸爸）

前年今日时，

花开球场嚣，

人面堆欢笑，

万事皆逍遥。

 

去年今日时，

花开意孤冷，

晨起鸽音低，

情深陷泪痕。

 

今年花又开，

萧萧又一年，

遥问西北客，

春归连君否？

 

 

强者学无止境

“相信”是我们语言中有最强含义的词汇之一，因为它代表了你的心

观念与哲理（理念）是哲学而不是策略

信念(哲理)+态度+专业+性格=成功

never over ever,forget or forever.

unless she has forgotten,i know,i will not.

因为丢了自行车，对公交路线敏感的许多。看，今天就收到了成效。

从翻班车下来，以百米的速度冲到stop下面，还没等喘过一口气来，329已经现身了。赶紧。

没想到阿，没想到，居然还有通宵的公交车经过，早知道，打死俺，俺也不骑咱家的保时捷来这了，都说火车站是贼窝，而我竟然将我的“蓝色梦幻”明目张胆的停靠在贼窝的隔壁。那些贼子们那还不来一个顺手牵羊，反手牵牛的。失策。

打的需要20，公交2，为庆祝开辟了一条新航线，特以打的的钱买了份麦当劳套餐，用来加强条件反射：小子，做个有心人吧，会有麦当劳吃。

感觉自己也就和杂技园的小动物差不多。

等我上台表演吧。

昨天丢了车，今天丢了魂。

明明记得自己上车的时候大声告诉自己，一定不能睡着，还是睡着了。

不当睡着了，还睡过了头，醒来的时候不当自己吓一大跳，也害得司机师傅吓一大跳，罪过罪过。

打的是难免的，可这样天天打的，工资是不够的。

从翻班车上下来，一片茫然，不知身在何处。看夜色沉沉，星月皑皑，心中竟无一丝思量。

招手一的，“曲阳路赤峰路路口”。头一落枕，继续。

有劳的哥您了。

今天比较背运，跟随我将近三年了的，我最爱的＂蓝色梦幻＂自行车被偷了，伤心．

自从大二我买了＂蓝色梦幻＂以来，我们风雨无阻，不即不离，称得上是感情深厚，我希望它的下一个买主可以像我一样珍惜它，爱护它。祝福我的“蓝色梦幻”。

旧的不去，新的不来，放弃已经失去的，珍惜拥有。

 

在高高i耸立的五根天柱前，孙悟空围着中间最粗的那根绕了一圈，说：想来这就是天边了。顺手留了个记号。返回见如来佛。

孙悟空说：你输了。如来佛见孙悟空所做记号，无言以对，盛怒之下，搬来五座大山，将孙悟空压在了五行山下，整整五百年。

五百年间，如来佛参透生死，无怒无怨，却终究参不透脸面二字。见东方盛世将兴，尚缺人和，需大乘佛经相助，遂借机让孙悟空保护东土取经人，始有唐三藏取西经之后事。

 

 

 

 

      他和她的相识是在一个宴会上，那时的她年轻美丽，身边有很多的追求者，而他却是一个很普通的人。因此，当宴会结束，他邀请她一块去喝咖啡的时候，她很吃惊，然而，出于礼貌，她还是答应了。
      坐在咖啡馆里，两个人之间的气氛很是尴尬，没有什么话题，她只想尽快结束，好回去。但是当小姐把咖啡端上来的时候，他却突然说：“麻烦你拿点盐过来，我喝咖啡习惯放点盐.”，当时，她都愣了，小姐也愣了，大家的目光、都集中到了他身上，以至于他的脸都红了。
　　小姐把盐拿过来了，他放了点进去，慢慢地喝着。她是好奇心很重的女子，于是很好奇地问他：“你为什么要加盐呢？”，他沉默了一会，很慢的几乎是一字一顿的说：“小时候，我家住在海边，我老是在海里泡着，海浪打过来，海水涌进嘴里，又苦又咸。现在，很久没回家了，咖啡里加盐，就算是想家的一种表现吧，以把距离拉近一点。”
　　她突然被打动了，因为，这是她第一次听到男人在她面前说想家，她认为，想家的男人必定是顾家的男人，而顾家的男人必定是爱家的男人。她忽然有一种倾诉的欲望，跟他说起了她远在千里之外的故乡，冷冰冰的气氛渐渐的变得融洽起来，两个人聊了很久，并且，她没有拒绝他送她回家。
　　再以后，两个人频繁的约会，她发现他实际上是一个很好的男人，大度，细心，体贴，符合她所欣赏的所有的优秀男人应该具有的特性。她暗自庆幸，幸亏当时的礼貌，才没有和他擦肩而过。她带他去遍了城里的每家咖啡馆，每次都是她说：“请拿些盐来好吗？我的朋友喜欢咖啡里加盐。”再后来，就象童话书里所写的一样，“王子和公主结婚了，从此过着幸福的生活。”他们确实过得很幸福，而且一过就是四十多年，直到他前不久得病去世。
　　故事似乎要结束了，如果没有那封信的话。
　　那封信是他临终前写的，写给她的：“原谅我一直都欺骗了你，还记得第一次请你喝咖啡吗？当时气氛差极了，我很难受，也很紧张，不知怎么想的，竟然对小姐说拿些盐来，其实我不加盐的，当时既然说出来了，只好将错就错了。没想到竟然引起了你的好奇心，这一下，让我喝了半辈子的加盐的咖啡。有好多次，我都想告诉你，可我怕你会生气，更怕你会因此离开我。
　　现在我终于不怕了，因为我就要死了，死人总是很容易被原谅的，对不对？今生得到你是我最大的幸福，如果有来生，我还希望能娶到你，只是，我可不想再喝加盐的咖啡了，咖啡里加盐，你不知道，那味道，有多难喝。咖啡里加盐，我当时是怎么想出来的！”信的内容让她吃惊，同时有一种被骗的感觉。然而，他不知道，她多想告诉他：“她是多么高兴，有人为了她，能够做出这样的一生一世的欺骗……

      一根小小的柱子，一截细细的链子，拴得住一头千斤重的大象，这不荒谬吗？可这荒谬的场景在印度和秦国随处可见。那些驯象人，在大象还是小象的时候，就用一条铁链将它绑在水泥柱或钢柱上，无论小象怎么挣扎都无法挣脱。小象渐渐地习惯了不挣扎，直到长成了大象，可以轻而易举地挣脱链子时，也不挣扎。 
      驯虎人本来也像驯象人一样成功，他让小虎从小吃素，直到小虎长大。老虎不知肉味，自然不会伤人。驯虎人的致命错误在于他摔了交之后让老虎舔净他流在地上的血，老虎一舔不可收，终于将驯虎人吃了。
      小象是被链子绑住，而大象则是被习惯绑住。
　　虎曾经被习惯绑住，而驯虎人则死于习惯（他已经习惯于他的老虎不吃人）。
　　习惯几乎可以绑住一切，只是不能绑住偶然。比如那只偶然尝了鲜血的老虎。

 

 

                              by williom blake

预感是一种很玄妙而又很真实的东西

 

可是

预知又能如何

不过是徒增烦恼与伤心而已

 

何苦自挠

 

只是一段情

忘了吧，忘了吧

 

然而。。。。。。

 

是的

还无法忘却

 

看来还得等胡子再长点

哈哈，哈哈

 

此情可待成追忆

只是当时已惘然

 

第8号分析陷阱：过度自信

    在你的判断上过度自信——因为你对自己的假设与意见太过肯定，以致怠于搜集必备的事实性资讯。

第9号分析陷阱：经验常理

    短视的抄小路——不当的仰仗“经验常理”，诸如暗自深信那些随手可得的现成资讯，或过度死抱着一些轻易可见的事实。

 

    这是一个真他妈的无聊与不切实际的想法，因此当那个驴蛋要从空中来攻击时，我愿意站在战舰的船桥上挨打。（美国准将比利.米奇说飞机向战舰上丢炸弹会把船弄沉。作战部长反应如上）

                                                                                    ——牛顿.贝克

                                                                                    1921年时任美国作战部长

                                                

i love the smell of roses on a summer's day;

fragrant and wonderful,they gently sway

in the breeze and the elm trees,filled with

life,begin to sing in glorious harmonies.

i love the smell of roses.

 

tranquility,sweet aromas,

living under a blanket laced with soma.

light causes love to come alive,

and once it's born it wil survive.

 

indulge in reverie in the well-lit

rosery.prayers just asking to be

heard.following a star,chasing the

dream.prick up an ear just to hear the

word.

 

silence

stimulates my

solitary

senses in a way i can't describe.

If you look deeply into the palm of your hand,you will see your parents and

all generations of your ancestors.All of them are alive in this moment.Each

is present in your body.You are the continuation of each of these people.

              

Solitude is the beginning of all freedom.

                                 ——William Orville Douglas